Saturday, September 24, 2011

I'm Ready - No Turning Back

I'm sitting in the Newark airport on a layover right now - flying home to Nashville in a few hours. Ready to pick back up on this adoption process after an amazing 10 day journey to India. It was a great trip and an amazing team. So glad I went. Being with those kids just made me long to be a mom and get my little boy home from Ethiopia asap. Just came across this picture of him hugging me so tight. I can't show his face but this is the back of his head so I wanted to post it. I can't wait to bring this sweet little snuggle bug home. I was talking with my team member who has 3 daughters and she was talking about family vacations and I had mentioned how I don't usually take vacations anymore. I either go to Michigan to see family when I have time off or I go on mission trips with my job. But it got me thinking that of course, I will want to start the tradition of a family vacation when I get my little man home. I'm sure many will be to Michigan to visit family but I'm excited to think about all the other adventures we can have together. If somehow I could bring him home tomorrow - I would not hesitate - I am SO ready. Obviously, there's more to the process so tomorrow won't be the day. But I am so looking forward to the day when I get on an airplane to head back home with my little man in tow. And from that moment on, I'm a mom. Forever. No turning back. I feel like my whole life has been leading up to this. I've known I've wanted to be a mom since I was a kid. I always thought I would have been married with kids years ago. So while the plan is very different than my early ideas about it - I have such a peace and joy about this plan. I trust God knows exactly what he's doing. Me, my little boy and our dog Auty - a family. I've seen those placards that say Love Makes A Family and I fully agree. It's not the "traditional family" and not everyone will understand but I'm ok with that too. I'm ok with every part of this. More peaceful and ready than I would have even thought I would be if you had asked me a few months ago as I was praying about adopting as a single. I've been listening to this song called "I'm not gonna leave you here" by my India team members Abner & Amanda from the duo Johnnyswim (they're awesome - you should check them out) and I feel like the chorus so captures how I feel about that sweet little boy in Ethiopia. I am NOT gonna leave him there. I am going to do everything I can to bring him home. I will sell all I have, do a million fundraisers, yard sales, concerts, whatever stacks of paperwork - whatever I have to do to get him home. I already feel like his mom so I am just praying for the Lord to move heaven and earth to keep opening doors to bring him home! I'm ready. 

2 comments:

  1. I cannot wait to read the post that says you are leaving to go get him and then coming home with your son. Continuously praying for you!

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  2. I can't wait either!!! Thanks for your prayers. So appreciate it!

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